I am probing my fingers in a great deep vacuum which has came into being all so sudden; huh! vacuum coming into being, isn’t it sounds so absurd? But then what should we call which is left behind when a being –a human being with whom we once lived and shared all sorts of awkward silences, roof whooping laughters, tensed moments and the times which passed so swiftly and happily that they left no traces in the minds– took his last plight, where would he go? One cannot know but what he left behind is surely a great vacuum in which even our sighs do not echo back. The struggle he did and what he had achieved in life is still very meaningful for us and present around us in every physical shape and form. But this vacuum is beyond my comprehension. Only the flashing memories juxtaposing with each other are the last resort. In the home, when I see the spaces and objects which had been once taken up and touched by him I see the time rewinding itself and showing me the images of us living together happily and also sharing moments of grief now and then. But these sorrowful times are hardest of all as he had already flown to some unknown skies…
Imran A. Vahidy
(1966-2011)
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I have come to believe that we begin to understand a person twice - once in life and once in death. But our perspectives differ. In life, we get the whole of them -- like a painting -- before our eyes in full -- we do not always dwell on the specifics that make that make the whole, but are perpetually impressed, continuously absorbing the 'all' of them at once. But in death we read them like a book. In detail, page by page, word by word, little by little -- we remember and recreate them. Their absense teaches us what there presence really was. The following from Emily Dickinson comes to my mind:
Water, is taught by thirst.
Land -- by the Oceans passed.
Transport -- by throe --
Peace -- by its battles told --
Love, by Memorial Mold --
Birds, by the Snow.
Perhaps death is the beginning of interpretation, creation and realization.
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